tired tired tired..

i'm damn tired. 80% of my energy goes to band with the remaining 20% to like hmmm sleeping? i hardly get any sleep anyway. yest i slept at like 3plus.. den woke up at 5 to do musical scores. thats about my daily routine of new life man. and it is to, wake up for school, fight to stay awake in class, go band rm or go hm and do sth related to band. full stop! thats benny's life now.. i'm benny heng anyway, not benjamin heng-.-

today had musical run thru in the cc. at least everything is starting to be smooth. soon it will seem like a routine where we all know our stuff and the only thing left is to perform on stage. the music isnt that fantastic but at least we are having fun. well at least the whole band is having fun during the preparations for musical. as usual, everyprac there will bound to be one time when i will shout at people. lift instru so slow, come down to band rm but don self prac-.-, nv do logistics, talk EXCESSIVELY during band prac.. usual man. our first half pieces are so not ready. shall look forward to our batch piece.. it will be awesome man. today i was so tired that during the second run thru i just stone and forgot to cue in the go the dist.. i was like eh shit. i was just so tired.. seriously. even now. by next wk i sure die alr. you know, when a person is super tired, he gets to be very agitated very easily.. so yeah. thats BAD man.

wrt school work, i haven touch anything lately man. maybe except chem and math. no time la like sumpah to the max. its really hard to find time for studies. maybe the best thing i can do is to try and stay awake in class like mentioned above. mr soh's class are like so helpful man. his talking just makes me go to sleep and dream.. the worst is geog lectures. its SO hard to stay awake cos siao's lessons are on so technical urban stuff. all i had in mind is "SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP" haha. yeah man. aiya basically school is damn boring.

i need these 2 things man.
massage
sleep
haha.