the one holding my soul.

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

some day when he thought she will care for him, she just had to prove him wrong.

i had straight 'U's. i just wanna study fr promos but, i lack motivation and support. my results are not fantastic neither isit sth to be proud of. i look as if i don mind, but in fact i do.

i'm a faker now. so when you think i'm who i am now, i'm not.
when i say i'm angry, i'm not.
but when i say i'm not, actually i am.
when i look happy wif smiles the whole day, its fake.
and when i look like i'm joking, i'm not.
and perhaps when i seem damn pissed, inside me just wouldnt feel the same.

i have been attending classes when i'm in school these days. at least sth to start with. but even if i'm in class, i still am distracted. how to concentrate man.

i need to study damn freaking hard now.. but how?

when i need to study now, i no longer have the support from her.
i need the software.
i need to wake up?

and i said it all over again.4:59 AM