the one holding my soul.

Thursday, July 05, 2007

in a hole, so deep..

life is bad. real bad. my life really turn from worst to "even" worst. after we ended, i became unbothered with life. spent my nights drinking, spent my days playing pool, spent entire days going out. i'm like in a hole, so deep, that i will never get out of it. but i dunno how to face ms ho now, i did so badly for common test.

my math was utterly screwed. real badly. was so depressed cos of it. but felt better after that. my playing is utterly horrid now too. yeahman, i'm like "blehhhh". my outside life is screwed too. whole day play play play. but the worst thing is i enjoy it, without any guilt. tmr going out again. fantasticular man.. my life is so "smooth"...

she cut her hair. she said it looks like some ah lian. well, wanted to go see tmr but maybe , maybe not. ohwell, i mean how ugly can it be.. like britney spears meh?? haha. oh tmr is college day. so i don really intend to go:S cos got amazing race. and for my very fantastic timing for 2.4, amazing race is not my cup of tea.

i was late today for school. i dunno how. took cab somemore..... that zahrinah.wl eh.. nvm. shall not say abt it. need to go shopping man. like real badly. my hair needs to be trimmed too. very messy hair i have now. and band wise.. haiyo. mr by and mr corne, pls come la. i will die soon... .... ... haha.

wanna go disturb syarah again abt her playing in band. so fun la to disturb her. but she always looks fierce. scared:S

"she's not my beau.."

and i said it all over again.6:47 AM